FLAT BATTERY TRIGGERS A PANIC ATTACK
The day is just resurrecting and my phone’s battery is dangerously close to the 20% mark — dying again. The bleeding icon left me feeling like one who is about to be robbed of his joy. Here I am on the streets, annoyed and hunting for a place to charge my phone. The memories of this same moment of last week replayed in my head.
Monday: I dropped everything at work — my body and breath — to head home to charge my phone.
Tuesday: I missed a match on Tinder because my phone accidentally died at the wrong time in a public vehicle.
Wednesday: My mother called me to ask why I haven’t called her to sympathize with the family concerning the death of my father; I put the blame on my phone that died.
Thursday: I refused to give my charger or spare charger to a girl I claimed to love, even when I promised to give her the whole world.
Friday: I delayed a meeting and lost a contract with my client in the morning; I delayed a date and lost the chance to talk to my crush in the evening because of my low battery.
Saturday: I stopped on the road to ask a stranger if he could allow me to charge my phone at his dilapidated house.
Sunday: I went to church for the first time in 365 days just to make use of their power outlet.
Sometimes, guilt wars at me and I do not like to fight back. Yesterday, my doctor said my chance of dying tomorrow is high; he said the gym could be my only saviour. This morning when it came to me choosing between hitting the gym or charging my dying smartphone, I found myself on the streets choosing to save my phone just so I could die of panic attack.
Temidayo Jacob is a Sociologist who writes from the North Central part of Nigeria. He writes as African voice through a global view and his works explore the connection between poetry, humans and the society. He is passionate about espousing the conflict between the individual and the society, especially through identity, sexuality and conformity. Temidayo Jacob is a Publisher at foenix press. He is the author of Beauty Of Ashes. He is also a curator at Artmosterrific. Temidayo’s works have appeared and are forthcoming on Rattle, Outcast Magazine, Lucent Dreaming, Kalahari Review, Peeking Cat Poetry, Sub-Saharan magazine, Page Adventure, and others. He is also a contributor to leading anthologies. You can reach him on Twitter @BoyUntouched.